Desire for Sin


Lack of Sorrow

The “desire to sin” is a dynamic topic. It sounds simple, but it isn’t. Many of us are humble enough and realize we desire many sins, but there are others who will say we don’t desire to sin at all. Yet, there are in fact many many ways we desire sin–don’t have contrition for our sins–that most don’t even think about. 

But if we still “desire” to offend God in any way at the moment of death, from that mortal desire, we choose Eternal Suffering instead of God’s saving forgiving love. Truly, unless we remove all desire for evil (sin) and grow in grace to desire God alone, at least, upon our death we can’t accept God’s saving forgiving mercy He died to give us since we still prefer sin over God’s love. Therefore, removing our desire for any and all sin is of the upmost importance. Eternity is forever!

“The souls in hell having been found at the moment of death with a will [desire] to sin, have with them an infinite degree of guilt; and the punishment they suffer, though less than they deserve, is yet, so far as it exists, endless.” 

–St. Catherine of Genoa

First of all, the “desire to sin” is defined as concupiscence: the desire/inclination to sin, which is from the consequence of original sin that is upon each human’s soul from Adam and Eve’s sin (cf. CCC #405). There are two kinds of “desire to sin:” deliberate and non-deliberate (unintentional) choosing of sin. The deliberate choosing of sin is what this article is written about. The deliberate choosing of sin also has two forms. The first being the deliberate choosing of sin and having a true hatred of the sin with a true resolve to stop. The second is the deliberate choosing of sin but lacking a true hatred for the sin and having no real resolve/desire to stop. This desire to sin, with no honest working effort to stop, is the deadly desire we must rid from our life if we want to accept God’s saving mercy. If we want to read about the non-deliberate choosing of sin, I speak about this briefly in the “What are the Mortal Sins” article (link at bottom of article).

The desire to sin: choosing sin without being firmly resolved to stop, lacking determination to never commit it again or not feeling truly sorry for committing any sin, are the sins that lead to our eternal doom and cause us all sorts of the depression, anxiety and problems in life. These are the sins that rejects God’s saving mercy and chooses an eternity in Hell. They are mortal. 

This horrible reality of sin is what we must come to truly understand in order to run to Our Savior for the grace to come to truly hate our sinful actions at least enough to not desire them any longer…because if we really understood the horror of sin, we most certainly would avoid any offense against Perfect Goodness like it was the worst of poisons. But we simply don’t believe and still desire much which is sinful. However, without turning to God correctly for His strength–His transforming grace–to be able to amend them from our lives we will surely die.

This desire to sin runs very deep with in us and is practically unknown to most since the evil one has been so successful at causing us to cover/hide our sins so we won’t see our crimes against God…so we will never develop true sorrow for them. Then we still prefer to commit them and not love God and belonging to the evil one for eternity. Everyone who is suffering eternally in Hell died from their still desire for sin that was on their hearts when their hour of judgement came. Tragically, God’s unfathomable love was waiting for them, and sadly they choose their sin instead of their Creator’s eternal love because of their still known or unknown desire/love for sin. They forfeited eternal life and choose eternal suffering instead. Incredibly tragic. We don’t want to do that, but horribly so many do.

To accept God’s forgiving mercy we must hate all of our sins, not desire a single one of them from the smallest to the largest–even if the sin is venial. It is true a venial sin won’t break our relationship with God, but if we desire just one venial sin (don’t hate it) by not seeking to amend any one of them, it is now mortal. That is because the “desire to sin” is a mortal desire. Wanting to offend our Creator is a grievous crime against God. We simply must want to love Him or we reject Him.

[A] venial [sin]…becomes mortal,” when someone “fix[es] one’s end in that venial sin [has no desire to amend]” –St. Aquinas.

I know many people, who are trying to live faithful holy lives, and don’t feel they desire any sins. However, this simply isn’t true for most of us. Unless we have advanced so much spiritual from toiling and toiling to remove sin after sin after sin, constantly imploring God’s grace to successfully eradicate the sins we desire (our habitual sins), and have the proof of correct discipleship–have grown in wonderful virtue and live a life of wonder peace (never complaining or worrying when things don’t go as we desire), bearing the all the fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, forbearance (patience), kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control) especially during those great tests from God (to show us if we do have the faith or not)…you know…our sufferings/problems–the crosses. If we fret, become angry, don’t rejoice in the cross…then we still desire sin…at the very least we still desire our will (what we want and not what God allows). That is because when someone finally removes all of the sins we desire, God rewards them with fantastic peace in all circumstances, especially during horrible suffering and trials.

“Great peace have those who love your law; nothing can make them stumble” (Psalm 119:165).

When we love God’s law and not any sin, we have fantastic peace. If we think we have removed all the sins we desire and yet, still continue to suffer outside of great peace with anger, frustrations, worries, etc., especially when we are tired, hungry, sick, treated poorly, grieving, hurt, or suffer pain or injustices, etc., then the devil has caught us in his trap of deception and has blinded us, like he has with so many others. This is because unless we have the fruits of the faith: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, especially during the cross like when others treat us poorly or we are suffering some trial, we should know something is really wrong as we are still lacking a saving faith from not truly loving God’s law.

“Happy are those who keep his decrees, who seek him with their whole heart” (Psalm 119:2).

A person with a saving faith has removed all desire for sin from loving God’s Word and they live a wonderful happy life…especially with their crosses. They desire God and His will alone and have removed all of the attachments to the things of the world they once ran to for happiness and have one by one removed them and replaced them with loving/desiring God alone. They choose the cross (God)…not pleasure (the world) and whole heartedly want to suffer out of love for God–what ever He wills–for His children for the salvation of souls. They don’t demand things to go the way they feel is good, but trust that God knows what is best and never complain or worry if they must suffer. They want to live the faith and really “follow Me.”

However, to come to this kind of faith, that wants to live the real faith, at least, at the hour of our death, takes much grace from God so we can gain the humility necessary to come to know ones true sinfulness and develop the contrition we need to accept God’s saving mercy and not reject it. However, we don’t want to only scrape into salvation at the moment of death, we want to desire to live the wonderful life God has planned for those who love Him and not their sins. A life of great joy awaits us. Therefore, lets first look carefully at some different ways we prove we still “desire to sin:”

  • don’t work hard to remove/amend our sins (are lukewarm)…if we sincerely hated our sins, we wouldn’t bear committing them and would do all we can to stop and obey.
  • don’t examine our choices/behaviors to see where we are failing to love as Christ has loved…if we sincerely hated our sins, we would want to know how we are hurting God, and would look deeply into our conscience to learn why we do what we do, so we could see sin in order to stop.
  • don’t choose to frequent the sacraments…if we sincerely hated our sin, we would run to God seeking His incredible grace He provides in the sacraments for the strength to amend our ways.
  • don’t make resolutions to stop our sins…if we sincerely hated our sins, we would come up with different things we need to do and remove obstacles that are hindering our progress towards perfection (stopping our sins).
  • don’t seek to become a saint…if we sincerely hated our sins we most certainly would wholeheartedly want to stop them…we would work to become a real saint of great self-denial.
  • aren’t removing our attachments to things of the world and still run to our TV, Internet, food, sex, success, money, friends, for our happiness and not to God alone.
  • become angry, worried, frustrated, etc. when things don’t go as we desire. If we truly wanted God’s will, we wouldn’t be outside of peace with whatever God allows. 
“The one who loves God above all things, does not cease grieving over the grave offenses he has committed against Him.” St. John of Avila

What are Mortal Sins

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