Desire for Sin
ONLY BY GOD'S GRACE CAN OUR DESIRE FOR SIN END
Lack of Sorrow
The “desire to sin” or “desire for sin” is a dynamic topic. It sounds simple, but it isn’t. But we need to rid it from our lives to Live.
Many of us are humble enough and realize we desire many sins, but there are others who, from our pride, will say we don’t desire to sin at all. But unless we have been toiling and toiling away seeking God’s grace over and over again to remove that desire, we all still suffer and most greatly from a horrid desire for sin. Most just can’t see it.
There are in fact many many ways we desire sin–don’t have contrition for our sins–that most don’t even think about, which I will discus in this article.
But the first point I want to make is desiring to sin–wanting to offend God–is the same as not being sorry for offending God. It is an “irregular” mortal sin, that is if we desire to sin a venial sin…but regardless of whether the sin is mortal or venial that we desire to offend God, it still rejects Eternal Life for that sin. We can’t want to offend God at all to be saved by Him. We must truly want to love Him.
We can’t want to offend God and claim we are sorry for offending Him at the same time…that would be a lie. Wanting to offend God in the slightest way is an abomination of Love and rejects His saving forgiving mercy for that sin.
Unless we remove all desire for evil (sin) and grow in grace to, at least, at the moment of our death truly hate all sin, we can’t accept God’s saving forgiving mercy, which He died to give us, since we still prefer sin over God’s love. Therefore, removing our desire for any and all sin is of the upmost importance. Eternity is forever!
“The souls in hell having been found at the moment of death with a will [desire] to sin, have with them an infinite degree of guilt; and the punishment they suffer, though less than they deserve, is yet, so far as it exists, endless.”
–St. Catherine of Genoa
What Is The Desire For Sin
First of all, the “desire to sin” is defined as concupiscence: like I said, it is the desire/inclination to sin (wanting to sin), which is from the consequence of original sin that is upon each human’s soul from Adam and Eve’s sin (cf. CCC #405). Concupiscence doesn’t just refer to our sinful sexual desires but our entire desire for sin.
There are two kinds of “desire to sin:”
- deliberate (intentionally) choosing of sin
- non-deliberate (unintentional) choosing of sin.
The deliberate choosing of sin is the kind of sin most commit.
Unintentional Choosing of Sin
For the most part, the unintentional choosing of sin is pretty much only for those who have not developed true knowledge of right from wrong (like young children or the mentally handicapped) or those who have acquired so much of God’s grace, from a hatred of sin so true, they can’t intentionally choose to sin.
If they do a wrong, it is their sinful nature sinning (the remnants of original sin)…not them. Therefore, they aren’t guilty in God’s eyes if they commit a wrong doing and have no loss of love with God.
“What I do, I do not understand. For I do not do what I want, but I do what I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I concur that the law is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me [from my sinful nature]. For I know that good does not dwell in me, that is, in my flesh. The willing is ready at hand, but doing the good is not. For I do not do the good I want, but I do the evil I do not want. Now if do what I do not want [if I have no desire for sin], it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me” (Romans 7:15-20).
Like with St. Paul, as he describes above, and with St. Steven the first martyr who was “filled with grace” (Acts 6:8), and with St. Therese de Lisieux, as she became full of grace too during her life.
From God’s love (His Grace), which repels true sin, they crucified the flesh of such desires and were constantly being renewed in that love and no longer could sin–no longer commit a sin they were accountable for.
“Now those who belong to Christ [Jesus] have crucified their flesh with its passions and desires.” (Galatians 5:24)
They are no longer slaves of the devil, desiring sin, but slaves of Christ, since they can no longer deliberately choose sin and have arrived at Christian Perfection.
“Since that day [when I had made my Act of Oblation on June 9, 1895], [Christ’s] love has surrounded me and penetrated me through and through. Moment by moment, the Merciful Love of God renews and cleanses me and leaves my heart without a trace of sin.”
–St. Thérèse of Lisieux
We also see this non-deliberate desire for sin–our sinful nature–in Christ, who God “made him to be sin [our sinful nature]” (2 Corinthians 5:21) so to save us from our sin.
Christ, who we know couldn’t sin deliberately, unintentionally chose to do wrong against His parents during the finding of Jesus in the temple, when He didn’t offer His parents the courtesy of communicating or asking permission to study with the teachers in the temple.
His “sin” was obviously non-intentional and from His sinful human nature, which He took on, not His free will choice, since Christ doesn’t deliberately sin because He is full of grace.
But at that time even though God was full of grace, He wasn’t perfect. You see, Christ was born without original sin and full of grace, but not perfect. He had to become “perfect.”
“When he was made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him” (Hebrews 5:9).
Just like all human-beings, we have to LEARN right from wrong. Yes, God places knowledge of good from bad within all of us, but it is something we have to learn. The Christ child wasn’t born speaking, understanding or knowing right from wrong. From our human nature, He had to learn it, just like all of us.
As the human body develops it acquires more and more knowledge. That is why one might ask, “How could Christ not know just going off and doing what He wanted without seeking permission first wasn’t wrong?” Well, Christ wasn’t given that life experience up until that time, and didn’t fully understand as of yet.
But of course after He that experience when He saw the great concern and confusion He created within His parents, His heart was grieved and “He learned obedience from what he suffered” (Hebrews 5:8).
After He learned the law of Love correctly and arrived at Christian Perfection (since He was already full of grace), “He became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him, (Hebrews 5:9).
This law which is learned is developed differently and at different rates for each person, but it takes time to fully understand all God’s laws. We might fully understand one law–fully understand one sin as being wrong and be accountable for it, but not another. The crime or crimes [sins] we have full knowledge of, are the sins we are guilty in God’s eyes for if we commit them. But the crimes we are still learning about, we aren’t.
The point in life in which we fully understand our first law of God as wrong, if we commit it, and are now guilty of offending God is an unknown point in time, but it is young.
“All of us once lived among them [those not in Christ, but still in sin] in the desires of our flesh [sin], following the wishes of the flesh [following our desire to sin] and the impulses [to sin], and we were by nature children of wrath [sin], like the rest.
But God, who is rich in mercy, because of the great love he had for us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, [from His grace] brought us to life with Christ [by taking away our deadly desire for sin]” (Ephesians 2:3-5).
Deliberate Choosing of Sin
While, the deliberate choosing of sin is what it sounds like; it is when we intentionally choose to offend God. We offend Him from not following the knowledge of right from wrong He placed within all of us that we learned or when we ignore of learned laws of the land. Sadly, this is how pretty much all mature people sin.
The deliberate choosing of sin has two forms:
- The deliberate choosing of sin with sorrow: having a true hatred of the sin with a true resolve to stop.
- The deliberate choosing of sin without sorrow: lacking a true hatred for the sin and having no real resolve/desire to stop. (deadly desire)
The second desire to sin, the lack of detestation for the sin, is the deadly desire we must rid from our lives that most unknowingly have much of, which leads to us rejecting Eternal Life and cause us all sorts of the depression, anxiety and problems in life. These are the sins that rejects God’s saving mercy and choose an eternity in Hell. They are mortal.
This is why growing in our sorrow/hatred for sin is so important, not only does it lead to a saving faith, but it even leads to Christian perfection.
There are two kinds of deliberate choosing of sin without having sorrow:
Great Desire to Sin
Frankly, we desire sin so greatly, it is impossible to grow in our sorrow/hatred for sin to come to a saving faith without much of God’s grace transforming our hearts. It takes so much grace to remove our great desire for sin, we must run to God daily and even constantly throughout our day to transform our lives.
This horrible reality of sin is what we must come to truly understand in order to run to Our Savior to save us.
But most don’t understand the consequence of sin well enough (believe enough) to where we will sincerely turn to God. However, without turning to God correctly for His strength–His transforming grace–to be able to amend our life and gain a true horror for sin, we will surely die.
This desire to sin runs very deep with in us and is practically unknown to most, since the evil one has been so successful at causing us to cover/hide our sins so we won’t see our crimes against God…so we will never develop true sorrow for them. Then we still prefer to commit them and not love God and belonging to the evil one for eternity. Everyone who is suffering eternally in Hell died from their still desire for sin that was on their hearts when their hour of judgement came. Tragically, God’s unfathomable love was waiting for them, and sadly they choose their sin instead of their Creator’s eternal love because of their still known or unknown desire/love for sin. They forfeited eternal life and choose eternal suffering instead. Incredibly tragic. We don’t want to do that, but horribly so many do.
To accept God’s forgiving mercy we must hate all of our sins, not desire a single one of them from the smallest to the largest–even if the sin is venial. It is true a venial sin won’t break our relationship with God, but if we desire just one venial sin (don’t hate it) by not seeking to amend any one of them, it is now mortal. That is because the “desire to sin” is a mortal desire. Wanting to offend our Creator is a grievous crime against God. We simply must want to love Him or we reject Him.
“[A] venial [sin]…becomes mortal,” when someone “fix[es] one’s end in that venial sin [has no desire to amend]” –St. Aquinas.
I know many people, who are trying to live faithful holy lives, and don’t feel they desire any sins. However, this simply isn’t true for most of us. Unless we have advanced so much spiritual from toiling and toiling to remove sin after sin after sin, constantly imploring God’s grace to successfully eradicate the sins we desire (our habitual sins), and have the proof of correct discipleship–have grown in wonderful virtue and live a life of wonder peace (never complaining or worrying when things don’t go as we desire), bearing the all the fruits of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, forbearance (patience), kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control) especially during those great tests from God (to show us if we do have the faith or not)…you know…our sufferings/problems–the crosses. If we fret, become angry, don’t rejoice in the cross…then we still desire sin…at the very least we still desire our will (what we want and not what God allows). That is because when someone finally removes all of the sins we desire, God rewards them with fantastic peace in all circumstances, especially during horrible suffering and trials.
“Great peace have those who love your law; nothing can make them stumble” (Psalm 119:165).
When we love God’s law and not any sin, we have fantastic peace. If we think we have removed all the sins we desire and yet, still continue to suffer outside of great peace with anger, frustrations, worries, etc., especially when we are tired, hungry, sick, treated poorly, grieving, hurt, or suffer pain or injustices, etc., then the devil has caught us in his trap of deception and has blinded us, like he has with so many others. This is because unless we have the fruits of the faith: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, especially during the cross like when others treat us poorly or we are suffering some trial, we should know something is really wrong as we are still lacking a saving faith from not truly loving God’s law.
“Happy are those who keep his decrees, who seek him with their whole heart” (Psalm 119:2).
A person with a saving faith has removed all desire for sin from loving God’s Word and they live a wonderful happy life…especially with their crosses. They desire God and His will alone and have removed all of the attachments to the things of the world they once ran to for happiness and have one by one removed them and replaced them with loving/desiring God alone. They choose the cross (God)…not pleasure (the world) and whole heartedly want to suffer out of love for God–what ever He wills–for His children for the salvation of souls. They don’t demand things to go the way they feel is good, but trust that God knows what is best and never complain or worry if they must suffer. They want to live the faith and really “follow Me.”
However, to come to this kind of faith, that wants to live the real faith, at least, at the hour of our death, takes much grace from God so we can gain the humility necessary to come to know ones true sinfulness and develop the contrition we need to accept God’s saving mercy and not reject it. However, we don’t want to only scrape into salvation at the moment of death, we want to desire to live the wonderful life God has planned for those who love Him and not their sins. A life of great joy awaits us. Therefore, lets first look carefully at some different ways we prove we still “desire to sin:”
- don’t work hard to remove/amend our sins (are lukewarm)…if we sincerely hated our sins, we wouldn’t bear committing them and would do all we can to stop and obey.
- don’t examine our choices/behaviors to see where we are failing to love as Christ has loved…if we sincerely hated our sins, we would want to know how we are hurting God, and would look deeply into our conscience to learn why we do what we do, so we could see sin in order to stop.
- don’t choose to frequent the sacraments…if we sincerely hated our sin, we would run to God seeking His incredible grace He provides in the sacraments for the strength to amend our ways.
- don’t make resolutions to stop our sins…if we sincerely hated our sins, we would come up with different things we need to do and remove obstacles that are hindering our progress towards perfection (stopping our sins).
- don’t seek to become a saint…if we sincerely hated our sins we most certainly would wholeheartedly want to stop them…we would work to become a real saint of great self-denial.
- aren’t removing our attachments to things of the world and still run to our TV, Internet, food, sex, success, money, friends, for our happiness and not to God alone.
- become angry, worried, frustrated, etc. when things don’t go as we desire. If we truly wanted God’s will, we wouldn’t be outside of peace with whatever God allows.
more coming soonour